Ponderings of a Wandering Mind

Hey there

2007-01-15T11:38:00.000-08:00

Hey there everyone, I know I haven't posted in awhile, I'm sure I'll have more information coming soon.........

Here I am again

2006-10-19T09:00:00.000-07:00

Ok, so I lied, apparently I had no intention of keeping my blog updated.

So here's the update in point form (I don't think I'm up to writing more essays):

Moving in with Peter
Goin to Vegas for Christmas
Goin to Disneyland in June
GOT MY PLAY APPROVED
Hopin to have guests over now that the House is in order

The Great England Adventure

2006-08-08T11:26:00.000-07:00

That's the name of the new england trip blog that I started
I know it's been a while but I just never had time to get it started
I also know that there's now use telling people about a new site and not giving the address
so here it is www.thegreatenglandadventure.blogspot.com Soon to be found in the links
tata for now

The return of the purrring blog

2006-08-07T12:08:00.000-07:00

Yes, it's true
I have revived the once dead blog and restored it to..... to..... to.......
Wait, what was I saying
Anyway life still as it was, I got to go to the Kamloopa Pow-wow over the long weekend, so that was cool. I also had two consecutive days off in a row, I'm feeling a little lost and scared about that, but I suppose all the sleep will help me get over it.
The Salmon Arm Roots an Blues festival is on Aug 18-20, Bedouin Sound clash is playing, so I'm pretty excited
Summer's almost over and the fall presses upon us, school hasn't even started and I already feel behind, any one else in the 'no script' boat? Well not so much a boat, maybe a dingy, no, one of those cute little tugs that haul the ocean liners, WAIT, I feel I've gone off track.
Anyway, I haven't had time to look for scripts and I swore to myself I'd have mine found by the spring, oh well, time marches on, and it's what you do with it I guess
Tata for now : )

I"M BACK

2006-08-02T22:33:00.000-07:00

England was wonderful, busy and wonderful. Met some really great people
Now I'm working, which by now most of the people who bother to read this blog already know
I should be able to schedule some time off in Sept. : )
Thanks to everyone who gave me a shout out on my B-day, it really helped to make it one of the best I've had in a while
For anyone who's interested Salmon Arm Roots & Blues Aug 18th 19th 20th
Tata for now

"Leavin on a Jet Plane"

2006-04-23T17:11:00.000-07:00

Off to the land of tea and crumpets, flying out tomorrow, catcha all on the flip side : )

TO GILLIAN

2006-04-13T12:08:00.000-07:00

Just posting where I hope you might see it. Peter and I are on out way to see you, fri 14th, we hope to be in town around 10:30 -11 am, call if this is a problem my cell 320-6437 or Peter's cell 819-0088

Hope to see you soon, miss you lots
:)

Gettin through

2006-03-29T13:16:00.000-08:00

Excited about directors fest, just had the greatest production shot ever!!!!!!!!
trying to keep on track and remember that I have assignments to finish so I can pass the courses I'm in. It's hard to remember some times, it doesn't feel like we should almost be done school. Don't get me wrong, I'm ready for it (aside from the massive assignments) but it just feels weird that another summer is upon us.

Pussy's Unite!!!!!!

2006-03-09T01:45:00.000-08:00

Well, that bit of craziness is done with. I just finished the Vagina Monologues and although it went well, I'm happy that it's over. I was being well groomed this year to become the new campus coordinator next year, and am happily stepping up to the task. I know it's gonna be hard to out-do past years, but I have, what I feel to be new and innovative ideas that I hope to implement. Big thank you to Peter for being so supportive and helpful, you know you're a superstar. And props to Foff for comin out and supporting a really worthwhile cause. 80% of the $$$ stays here in Kamloops to help people in our own community, what could be better than that.
Now truckin on towards directors fest, feeling good about the script and the director, hoping for a kick ass show

:)

Can't complain.....well I could but I'm sure no one would listen

2006-02-20T10:59:00.000-08:00

Life's goin ok, albeit a little busy right now. I swear if it was called Spring Break I would be galavanting around having oodles and oodles of fun. But NO, they had to go and name it Reading Break, so guess what I'm doing with most of my time.

I'm very happy with my directors fest play, and director. To be honest I was a little nervous about both, but I'm pleasently surprised with both.

Other than BUSY BUSY BUSY, there's not much more to say.

long time no see? hear? write?, either way

2006-01-26T02:12:00.000-08:00

I don't know why I haven't written in a while, ah well, here it goes.
As holidays go, mine was blissfully peaceful for the most part. Meaning that I didn't go on any stupendous trips, but I was still very busy. Which only made me wonder how I get through the school year and still manage to get everything done, it's a mystery best left up to the experts. I had a wonderful time with my family and I'll just say that the new school year seemed to come on a little fast.
Don't get me wrong I'm actually happy to be back, I enjoy what I'm doing this semester and especially looking foward to directors fest. I'm finally a head of schedule for some of my assignments.
See my theory is, if I stay as far ahead on my assignments NOW, then when I enevitably start to fall a liitle behind at the end of the semester, I won't be behind, I'll actually be right on target.
Well it makes sense in my head.
Things are going wonderful with the man of my dreams. I'm really looking foward to the trip to the U.K. in May, but I have to keep focused ahead, I mean right now, I mean...aww... you know what I mean

SURPRISE!!!!!

2005-12-15T15:38:00.000-08:00

Thanks to all that were able to make it out to Carly's impromptu surprise party it went fabulously. She was truly surprised and greatful, thanks for a great evening.

:)

I love quizzes :)

2005-11-29T15:24:00.000-08:00

?? Which Natural Wonder Or Disaster Are You ??

NOW there's a Deadly sin I can Get on board with

2005-11-28T15:56:00.000-08:00

Apparently I'm lust, woohoo, Little flag : )
which of the seven deadly sins are you?

R-e-l-a-x-a-t-i-o-n

2005-11-23T21:33:00.000-08:00

Since I'm currently taking 6credit courses I don't have anything goin on during the exam period. So I've made a very important decision. I'm going to relax, sleep, then start some of the projects that I need to do for the winter semester. Yes my friends I've decided to start working on assignments, Early. I know it sounds radical, but the thing is, I really do enjoy the things that I'm studying. One major problem during the school year is that there's too many god damn things to study a the same time, so you can never just revel in the new information you've aquired before you're hell bent on cramming more stuff into your already jam-full brain. I just want time to come to terms with concepts in my own time, read a chapter of sociology and really enjoy it. Maybe paruse a play and really sink into characters and places. I have to remind myself that I really do enjoy the things that I am studying, and I want to be here!

Me? with a Budget, that's un-possible

2005-11-08T16:56:00.000-08:00

It's good to have money and the things that money can buy, but it's good, too, to check up once in a while and make sure that you haven't lost the things that money can't buy. - George Lorimer

I spent a lot of money on booze, birds and fast cars. The rest I just squandered. - George Best

The Wonders of the Pumpkin form

2005-10-27T23:07:00.000-07:00

These are the pumpkins that were carved this last weekend, is a new tradition to carve fun pumpkins be fore halloween. This years theme was DISNEY VILLANS

Prince John and Sir Hiss by Annie Williams

Scar by Peter Evans

The Evil Queen by Yours truly

Here Foff, Happy now?

2005-10-21T12:47:00.000-07:00

Fear and loathing in las vegas personality test

Endlessly seeking definition

2005-10-19T10:00:00.000-07:00

Disney Character ?
Musical?
What Greek God are you?
Type of Death?
Your death will be murder....Most likely because your a very social person and everyone knows you, but there is one person lurking in the shadows that is so jealous of you or is so obsessed they end up killing you...There are many ways of being murdered...it depends on the person, but your death will either be slow and painful (like being stabed to death) or quiek and painless (like a gunshot to the head).
Johnny Depp Movie?
Pirates Of The Caribbean: Like Johnny Depp in this movie you can relate best to Jack Sparrow. He isn't that shabby of a guy, maybe just a bit devious. You probably like to just kick back and relax. I suggest you travel lots or take vacations.
Moulin Rouge Character?

Apparent mid-day doubt

2005-10-14T13:08:00.000-07:00

When I posted my last blog, I failed to mention that although sometimes it seems that the the walls are closing in and you're being threatened to be consumed by a big scary monster, there are always those who believe that you can make it through the darkness and strain.

I am so happy to have people that I can count on to help me see the strengh within myself, that I try to delude myself sometimes , isn't there. I know I can make it through because I have such love and caring around me, and I know that no matter what happens I will have that bit of sunshine to burn through the stormy clouds of my self doubt.

Done one analysis and one mid-term, and have one analysis and mid-term to go, and miraculously I'm still standing, I still exist. Thank you to those who always knew I could.

Again and Again

2005-10-12T15:03:00.000-07:00

So here we are again wading into the midst of mid-terms and mid-semester essays. Trying to make time for the things you want to do, and things you have to do. But when does the things you want to do, take presidence. And then there's the flickering thought that, what if you can't do it this time, what if this is the time that you won't make it through, and instead of wading through, the water begins to get deeper and you end up going under .

But in the end you end up doing what you have to, moderatly, if not well. We all end up surviving

The Art of Happiness

2005-09-28T13:10:00.000-07:00

I've always felt that my happiness existed on many levels. But I am now realizing how great it is to just be just simply and completely happy. I always thought that things had to be complicated to bring about happiness, that it was something you had to try at, that you had to make happen. I'm realizing that sometimes you just have to let go, and allow yourself to be happy, keep it simple, don't burden your happiness with the stresses of everyday life. Because, really, they have nothing to do with each other, and that it's your outlook on things that really dictates how you deal with the trivialities of the day to day.

No Explination Needed

2005-09-26T15:19:00.000-07:00

Restful f-r-e-e t-i-m-e

2005-09-19T17:58:00.000-07:00

still getting uses to that word, wonderful weekend of blues-listening-pie-eating-movie-watching bliss. Now if the summer had bee as relaxed as this I would have wished it's continuance. I guess I still do.
Thanks to Shannon for throwing one hootinany of a shindig, had a great rowdy udder twistin time.
Coping with classes alright a guess, reveling in the breaking of new ground in the pathways of the brain. I enjoy my classes , and at the same time feel the Apprehension of up coming essays at upper level . ooohhh fun

Long days ahead

2005-09-10T12:12:00.000-07:00

Well first week of school is finished, I must say with very little pain involved. I am however taking 4, 6credit courses, that run all year long, so that should be interesting.
Odd that the only incident this week that was amazingly unpleasent really had nothing to do with school, let's just say that I've had my first run in with a psychotic ex, and I'm still standing. So kudo's to me I guess.
Everything's fine because I'm so amazingly happy and content right now, I really didn't know that I could feel like this, having someone in my life that really 'gets' me. I mean it's important to not feel like your alone, and I don't know if I have, I've always had great friends around me, but there's a difference between that and having someone who is 'on the same page' and more importantly, someone who's even reading the same book! I'm just so greatful to have that in my life now.
Now it's time to kick back and take some time at the Salmon Arm Fall fair, YAY!

Here we go again

2005-09-05T14:11:00.000-07:00

Here we go embarking on the road to higher scholastic aptitude

New addition to the Blogger Relm of debauchery

2005-08-28T23:41:00.000-07:00

Hey there pals and gals, Peter has a new Blog, check it out, it's a little bit of delinquent fun

http://temptthemonkey.blogspot.com/

temporarily employed

2005-08-26T12:13:00.000-07:00

Well I still have a job, but I don't know for how long, and that's about as much certainty that anyone has around here. I't still over my head as to whether I will be let into work tomorrow. It really sucks, it's not the money really the the principal of the matter along with the fucking stupid politics.

Sitting in workweek limbo

2005-08-24T10:52:00.000-07:00

So I could be out of a job any minute, any minute there could be a court appointed official here to issue official eviction from the premisis, and I could be out of a job for the rest of the summer, I've already had to alter my plan because of this. And the extra money I thought I was going to have, yeah, not so much. It's not really the money, it's the waiting that's getting to me, it's the , not knowing if I'm goin to be working for the rest of the summer.

I hate wait

Things of our life

2005-08-17T15:47:00.000-07:00

Do you ever feel down for no reason, I mean you evaluate the things in your life and they should be good, and are but you just feel a little down with the day. Maybe it's just the weather, but I took a little bit of a nose dive this afternoon, I was fine up until then. Then physically I just started feeling bad, icky, lathargic and just plain down in the dumps. I don't really get it, I'm happier now then I have been in a while, and yet at the same time I look at life and it doesn't seem to be mine. I'm doing what I love. Maybe it's the fact that I'm still busy but I don't have a project right now, I miss hanging out with everyone, and I know that's dumb becasue I see most of you, either movies or Karaoke, but I like being a part of something. I also realized that I need something from my life that I never did before, and that revelation has been intense but pleasent and welcomed, but still a little overwhelming, will not overwhelming, that would denote that I wasn't able to handle this relvelation. Whelming really, comforting I guess. I know this blog is all over the place, but that's where I am right now, all over the place. I think it was just the end of the day, at work I somehow managed to jam an entire days worth of work into about 20min, I'm tired, it's sleepy time

Ooooo Percy Baby, you move me with your chesire cat grin

2005-08-15T13:02:00.000-07:00

I just got to spend a great night in Salmon Arm, at the every so popular Roots & Blues festival. It was unbelievable amounts of fun, once I met up with my Mother she was able to get me a back stage pass and we were able to sit about 5 feet from the stage when Mr. Percy Sledge came on. Ooooohh that man has a voice on him that moves my heart ( he's the original singer of 'when a man loves a woman'). When you're close enough to see his face clearly you can see just how he feels the intensity of every note he sings. When his set was over I got meet him and get a photo and meet Jim Byrnes, and get autographs and the band is supposed to be calling me today or tommorrow, they want me to show them some stuff in Kamloops. All in all it was pretty damn fun.
tee hee (raised ankle, giggle)

Just call me the emotional sadist

2005-08-13T09:43:00.000-07:00

I have had to hurt someone that I care deeply about, and although we will be able to pull ourselves out of it, I feel the darkness of the pain I am causing. I've just had to tell one of my bestfriends that we will not be together again, he was about to ask if we could start dating again, and make another go of it. I had to look him in the eye and break his heart again, for the, oh I don't even know I've lost count how many times I've had to hurt him. He's in pain so I'm in pain, it's hard to try not to carry other peoples emotions, but this had to be done.

I just need a hug right now

Maybe that wasn't the best idea, but it was fun. And that's what really counts

2005-08-12T10:38:00.000-07:00

Wow, that was way too many Martini's for a week night. Went out last night for my friend Bunni's Birthday, and I officially am in love with SOHO lychee nut liquor. Last night was a lot of fun, I met a bunch of new fun people, had some great conversation, great food and great music. Had to quickly go meet a friend somewhere else, only to find that the bar(players) was closing soon, which left me running down Victoria in a skirt in the middle of the night.
Happy relaxing fun I'm so glad that I was able to go out last night even if I did have to work this morning
OOOOooooo AND I got to spend some all to brief time, on the river with some really awsome people, and I came away with the very first Burn of my life, I got sun burnt, me legs feel kinda funny right now, a little crispy, hmm, interesting

To Auntie Jeanne

2005-08-02T16:46:00.000-07:00

You are loved and missed, where ever you are, I know you are free of pain now, Rest softly

Kamloopa Pow-wow time!!!!

2005-07-30T14:54:00.000-07:00

It's Kamloopa pow-wow time, who's excited? well Probably just me.
I heard one of the greatest drum groups last night, Thundering Spirit
WOW were they good, defintly getting and CD
Then there was mens Fancy dance..... WOW

If you can make it, definitly go, you won'e regret it

2005-07-27T13:09:00.000-07:00

Well Tempest is over , every one did a wonderful job, but you all knew that already.

Feeling a bit of "down the rabbit hole' syndrom, but I really don't know why

truly don't know if I could feel any worse

2005-07-20T15:20:00.000-07:00

I don't know what to feel right now, have you ever had those times where you got mad at someone for something, thinking that you were completly justified in how you were feeling, only to find out later that the person you were mad at is not only validated in their actions, but the reasons for their actions are so severe that they make your conserns seem so juvenile and superficial.

I feel like such a selfish-inconsiderate-selfabsorbed-BRAT

My other side of the family is going through something kinda major right now, and all I've been conserned with, is if my Dad could come and see one of the plays, he's been going through something big and all I could worry about is myself .I don't know if I could feel more stupid and selfish right now

Who am I Really?

2005-07-17T10:30:00.000-07:00

Found some other fun tests to find out who I really am, here are some of fictional counter-parts For the

Simpsons test
Lord of the rings
Star trek
Star wars
Austin Powers
Superheros

Apparently I'm most like men, huh, weird, maybe it says something about the gender bias for strong independent-minded characers, hhmmmm, interesting

Explorations into my true personality

2005-07-16T09:56:00.000-07:00

I found out what Famous leader I am as well as what classic movie I am most like. I'm gonna have to say that I'm happy with the movie, and more than a little confused about the famous leader parallel. I mean other than being wonderfully charming and Poly-Amorous I don't know what we have in common. Ah well, at least he ruled the free world for a while.

"I want to DIE".......... Now is that you or your feet talking?

2005-07-14T11:35:00.000-07:00

I officially have new respect for dancers that have to wear ballet slippers..... nuff said

Only the 8th and July's pretty much over already

2005-07-08T09:15:00.000-07:00

Well finally recovering from my mysterious illness, ok, well I lie, it wasn't so mysterious, I wore myself out, plain and simple. But I'm getting better, still tired though, I've decided that might be a good heading on my tombstone, " here lies Laura, resting at last". Really happy to be doin Tempest, athough WALLS was a wonderful experience, it's nice to be able to do a show that's fun, and not be crying every night and getting completly emotionally exhausted. Anyhoo, August is mainly mine, we still need to play on the play ground and have that scavenger hunt, I'm determined to make that happen before the summer is out.

Great Run

2005-07-01T09:09:00.000-07:00

I wanted to thank everyone that made WALLS one of the best experiences of my theatre life. I'm so proud of all of us, people can't stop talking about us, and for good reason, we ROCKED!!!!!

I am so thankful to have been able to be a part of a production of this importance and I think every one did a fantastic job

On the other note I think the cast party went absolutly swimmingly, thanks for the great times :)

The math of happiness

2005-06-24T12:07:00.000-07:00

I don't understand why life seems to feel the need to keep everything even all the time. I had a great day yesterday, my friend came in all the way from Edmonton to see the play and stayed the night, we all slept-in, went for lunch, went to the park, went for icecream, all in all yesterday was a stellar day, that I was still feeling the glow of this morning. Then, while at work this morning I get a message on my cell, my Dad won't be able to make it to the play. I had such a great day yesterday, I was actually happy and a little relaxed for a little while and the news from my dad cancelled that all out. This is an important role for me and I really wanted him to be able to see just what I work so hard for and he's not going to be there. Then I find out today that my aunt is being sent back to vancouver from more testing, she's really sick right now. Why the hell can't everything be good for a while, just for a little while. I have to go now, I have to try not to cry on the tourists.

Not surprised but very please

2005-06-22T14:01:00.000-07:00

I'm not surprised that the first night of WALLS went swimmingly, I knew we would all come through and be a a great success. And a standing O to boot! That made me very happy indeed, I hope we get one of those every night, we've all worked hard enough to deserve it. Good job to all those who are involved, both cast and crew, great job. I could hear the involvment of the audience, they were right in to it, the loved it, and listening to the conversation afterwards i think we really affected some people. Still looking forward to the rest of this week, I know it's gonna be great. I really felt everything last night, the happiness, the panic, the hope and the despair, which isn't bad considering the I haven't had a day off since last monday, but I'm a little Jazzed that my family was able to make it for opening( Really crossing my fingers that my father will be able to make it down, I mean how often do I ever get a role of this size). I would say that all who haven't seen it have to come to the show, but as I'm writing this sentence I realize that most of the People who read this Blog are in the play or are involved, but I'll give the usual plug anyway, WALLS, $10, Actors Workshop Theatre, TRU.21st-25th

Truly worthwhile encounter

2005-06-18T09:10:00.000-07:00

So I had dinner last night with my co-worker and her friend, a very warm and friendly gentlman who just happened to know the real woman that my character is based on. I don't think I really knew until last night just how much this character means to me, and I don't mean because the magnitude of the role I was graced with, I mean that she was a real person that tried to affect real change for the better.To those also invloved in WALLS I just really hope that we are able to do enough to really touch people and maybe help inspire people in to action for change. I find it very scary and sad what happens to people in our so-called correctional facilities, those who weren't criminals to begin with, usually will be once they are released, and those who were guilty and convicted only learn better methods of crime with more of a sense of hate when they are released. I really do think it's important what we're doing and that we can't just look at this like any other production, this is going to affect alot of people and we have to be prepared for that.

And personally for myself , after learning about the REAL Mary, I just hope that I'm able to do justice to what this amazing woman stood for. She believed in the good within people and the ability for change, and above all treating people like human beings, no matter their position in life, I really do believe we can learn alot from this great woman.

WALLS are closing in

2005-06-15T10:09:00.000-07:00

I echo Jess's lament about walls, it was a little scary with the lighting changes and real props, but I do have full confidence and faith in the cast and crew, we're gonna be great.
Looking forward to Fundraise this! I think I found a dress to wear, it's gonna be wicked, I'm thinkin Veronica Lake- Rita Hayworth 40's Screen Siren type outfit, lookin forward to it.

I'm also lookin forward to Batman Begins, unfortunatly the first avalible time that I could get to see it is Sun matinee, anybody in?

Oh and for those who have the chance I strongly suggest going to see Mr. and Mrs. Smith, definitely worth goin to see. Not neccessarily for the skin that is shown, but for other reasons this movie is almost better than porn, I swear, whew, I think I need a cold shower

HOLY CRAP THATS A SHIT LOAD OF PINK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-06-09T11:55:00.000-07:00

Sincere apologies to anyone who viewed my blog between the hours of 3pm Wed afternoon and 12pm Thurs afternoon. I was goofin around on my tester blog, you know the one I try changes on before doin it to my real blog, well I read a street sign wrong, or I was holding the map upsidedown or something, cuz before I knew what happened, BAM!!! I was smack dab in the middle of Pepto-bismal town asking for directions to the off ramp, tryin to make the locals understand me better by speaking slower and increasingly louder. I advise everyone to steer clear of "Ms. Moto" template wherever possible, if you value your sense of taste.

Yech : P

Stalkings of a Raving loony

2005-06-08T14:21:00.000-07:00

Ok and when I say, raving loony, I don't mean Jack Sparrow cutely-crazed type loony, I mean Clinically INSANE!!!!
For those who haven't heard I am currently back into a little bit of HELL that I thought I was rid of.

S'ok, I've written my letters to the RCMP and CSS in gracious hopes that this creepy demented psycho won't be able to inflict his deranged-hobit-ish-lunatic ravings on any more unsuspecting students.

For those who want to know the sordid details, please read on, it's the letter that I'm giving to the RCMP, for those who don't really care, have a good day.

I, Laura Michel, resided at ________on Monmouth drive, from Aug 2004 until October 15th 2004. I had signed a lease with a Mr. Ajah Azreal stating that I would reside at this address until June 2005. However soon after moving in, someone began sabotaging appliances in the house, and according to Mr. Azreal someone had tried to forcibly open the door to his personal room. I was accused of inflicting the damages on the residence, having no part in them, and not knowing who had done them, I began to fear for my personal safety. At this time I was also being accused, by Mr. Azreal, of bringing illegal substances into the residence. I felt it necessary, for my personal safety, to terminate my lease agreement immediately. There is documentation signed by both Mr. Azreal and myself stating that I left the residence on October 15th of 2004, and would not be paying further rent for my lease agreement.

Due to the circumstances leading up to, the termination of the lease, agreement I did not expect to be contacted by this individual any further. Having been accused of sabotaging appliances and possessing illegal substances (or having brought individuals into the house in possession of illegal substances) I immediately contacted the RCMP. A RCMP officer had been to the house to review the damages; I left my name and contact information, not to be given the Mr. Azreal. Being accused of inflicting the damages I did not want my termination of the lease agreement to appear as admission of guilt.

At this time having moved out so quickly there were still a few pieces of personal mail that had been delivered to the Monmouth residence, I immediately took steps to have any further mail re-directed to my new address. The mail that was delivered to the Monmouth address was not important to me; I did not seek to obtain it. However, Mr. Azreal contacted my place of work several times, becoming increasingly irate when my supervisor, School Liaison of the Secwepemc Museum, Daniel Saul, repeatedly stated that he was unable to release personal information about former/current employees. Mr. Saul is available for any specific facts concerning these telephone calls and can be reached at (250) 828-9801. Until recently, this was the last time that Mr. Azreal, to my knowledge, attempted to contact me.

June 5th 2005, Mr. Azreal contacted two people close to me, inquiring into my whereabouts and current condition, and stated that he would be sending me a letter, through my parents address, that he asked be forwarded to me. I will immediately pass this letter on to the authorities. Since the termination the lease agreement I do not feel that this individual has any right contact myself or any of my friends or family. This letter is documentation of event the have spanned from August 2004 until current. Due to the circumstances surrounding the termination of the lease, I will recognize any further contact from Mr. Azreal to be inappropriate and unsolicited harassment.

Loss of blood is a small price to pay for blessed relaxation and campfire smell

2005-06-05T17:19:00.000-07:00

Just got back from spending one night in the wonderful wilderness, we did the whole sha-bang: Campfire, tents, s'mores ( also, new invention, caramel s'mores), roasted hotdogs, and more FREAKIN mosquitoes than you could shake a fist at. Well I mean we did the whole fist shaking thing and just ended up gettin bit. I mean seriously there were two guys there, wearing shorts and no bug spray, at one point I had used a half bottle of spray, I swear, and was wrapped up so only my eyes were showing, and the GOD DAMN little things were still able to bite me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think it's a huge consperacy, the bug spray companies put bug bait in the spray so comsumers with have to buy calamine lotion or similar anti-itch rememdies, which leave your skin dry, so you have to buy lotion, so then your hands are all lubed up and your hands end up slipping off your door knob, so you can't get out of your house, so you try to open the window to get out, but that just ends up letting more bugs in, so you have to go and buy more bug spray!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They must be stopped!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But all in all the weekend was great : )

Finally, rowdy fun, yay

2005-05-27T09:28:00.000-07:00

I don't know about you but I'm indubitably excited about the Macquattinson Celebration commencing tomorrow. I really think that we should all put in, and get them a stripper or something, I mean isn't the 21st year the lycra year for gifts? If it isn't then I should really write an angry letter to the writers of ' Cletus's guide to social-norms'
You may be interested to know that the Macquattinson's are fortunate enough to share the same birthday as such great figures as Bob Hope, J.F.K., and last but not least..........LaToya Jackson!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wow, I mean, I'm excited.
So here's to a hip-hop-hootin-hollerin-hootenanny of a shindig, and tonnes more drunken BMAS debauchery

: )

That was TOALLY WICKED!!!!!!!

2005-05-19T10:24:00.000-07:00

Tired the next day, but left very impressed with the new installment by George Lucas and crew. Revenge of the Sith was very well made and seemed to stay true to a real 'starwars-y' feel, right down to the screen wipes. It succeeded in showing a well rounded transformation of Skywalker into Vader, and gave us a little more insights into the Dark lord we thought we knew, the film make you want to watch episodes 4 thru 6, just to catch the sublteties presented by the new developments in Vaders past and chracter. All in all it was a very enjoyable night (well I guess technically morning) spent with the BMAS group, thanks bigman, for the foresight to get tickets, it was wonderful.

And 'Star Wipe' :)

The odd things your mind doesn't tell you about

2005-05-18T09:48:00.000-07:00

Have you ever been surprised at how much you really wanted to see someone, but not really known it until you weren't able to see them? I find it really interesting that sometimes our feelings sneak up on us, now I"m not talkin about anything really gooey, or sappy, my friend James was supposed to be in town last night and wasn't able to make it. Sometimes I get surprised by the intensity of the feelings that I have for some people, I mean usually you try to be very casual about it, and not get too excited about these types of things. It goes back to the whole 'healthy' pessimism thing I guess, don't get worked up too much about certain events , so if they don't go as planned your not too bummed about it. But sometimes that doesn't work and your a little sad anyway. I haven't seen James in about 6 months and despite my attempt to remain clam and collected, I got a little jazzed to see him, and when I heard the voicemail that he wasn't able to make it into Kamloops, I took a bit of a nosedive, it's interesting how some people can do that to you. I'm a little happier now, I got a wake up call this morning, but my point is that sometimes we have such a capacity of emotion within us that when we get a true glimpes of it, it shocks us a little.

Ok, on a less ponderous note, who's excited about not only being able to hang with the BMAS group, but see a really awsome movie at the same time, ooo, I am!

See you guys tonight

I mean who really needs sleep anyway?

Oooo Pick me teacher, I'm ever so flame retardant

2005-05-12T09:07:00.000-07:00

So rehearsals are started, and who's excited about all the fun new circus stuff and prision hoopala, oooo , pick me!
Although everything seems somehow marred by the fact that I have the throat from hell right now, it's freakin bitch, and to top that off today I have a tour of gr.4's , in like and hour!!!!

But I figure I can just go straight to sleep after rehearsal tonight, the prospect of an exciting busy weekend is enough to scare me into an early night.

And just right now I found out my fuckin tire on the fuck car is flat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Great, that's just great, I have to go take care of that now, before my tour gets here

A little pessimism never hurt anyone

2005-05-09T13:49:00.000-07:00

I don't try to look at the world on a pessimistic note, it just sort of happens. I'm one of those who has been sorely disappointed with the certain out comes and as a result have developed what I believe to be a fairly realistic out look on life. This is in no way implying that I don't have dreams or goals, I do, I just try to deal with the practicalities of life and the chance of failure. I seems hard to explain, I hope for the best but don't expect things to turn out for the best. I believe that things happen for a reason, and I don't mean in a religious way, but as you may have already seen I'm a big believer in fate and it's workings, things happen for a reason and it's really what you make of the situation, whether you choose to dwell or grow is really up to you. I was really worried about money, and the prospect of the dreaded second job, and things seem to be turning out ok, some times you just have to wait for things to get better, even if it seems to be happening very slowly and in small little bits, sometimes things get better.

Why am I still so busy

2005-05-05T15:11:00.000-07:00

I don't know why I still seem so busy, don't get me wrong we've been doing some really outragously fun things as of late, but it just seems that I'm still so busy, and the busy part of the summer hasn't even started yet! As always still worrying about money, but thankfully I have awsome family and friends that are willing to help out, even if it's only to help get by. I thought that I was gonna take all of this week to clean my house and learn lines, but nope, sure wasn't doin that, I might take tonight and try to get some of that stuff done before my fate is decided for the summer. I find out tomorrow when I start work, I really hope it's soon, I don't want to have to find a night job, although I enjoy working in kitchens, I really don't want to have to leave a job after such a short time, as well I don't think I'll be able to do both plays while working two jobs. I just have to trust that the museum will get there act together already

From one stress to another

2005-04-28T14:28:00.000-07:00

So barely surviving and emerging from a hectic full year, into an awsome, but still full hectic summer, hoping to stay afloat finacially and physically I sit and pondering. I hate money, I hate worrying about money and stupid money troubles. Not that I'm as vain or selfish to say that I should be beyond them, but money surrounds us and dictates what we can and can't do and with who, because I'm not the only one without money right now, others are drowning in the same putrid unending sour pit that is known as debt, but there are those that are getting by just fine. But unfortunatly when you don't have money you can't participate in certain things, and when you do have money, others seem to be broke, so they can't participate. I HATE IT!!!!!
There are already too many life stresses to worry about money, there are too many beautiful things in this world to have it marred by being broke or in debt. We miss the little things if we focus on money too much, but how can you help it, it's everywhere.

Ok changing gears

I'm so extremely excited to take part in WALLS, honestly it's been a while since I got anything even close to a lead role, alright, the last play that I was in I was the only female, but that was more of a collective play. I'm really excited about being a part of such a great production group. I'm also excited about bein involved with Project X , the tempest, sounds like it's going to be a great fun summer, I'm looking forward to great memories and good times with friends.

BMAS and echo people, you know who you are, we're gonna have great adventures and rowdy happiness to last for years and years of good happy fuzzy memories. : )

Awsome Trip, Suprising Encounters and Long Awaited Reunions

2005-04-25T10:44:00.000-07:00

This weekend has been interesting and intriuging to say the very least, no, let's rephrase that completey, Some times fate and time just blow my mind!

I went on a great, no-stress, trip to Van this weekend with some great, no-stress, people. Everything was great, and fun, and relaxing, all of it. The aquarium was great, had great fun shopping without money, spent a wonderfully relaxing morning wondering the shops and market on Granville island, went for possibly some of the best Ice Cream in existance (208 flavors is nothing to scoff at!!!), then went to a sex shop, then to dinner, then home. This is pretty much the summary of the trip, but by far not the most significant part.

The first night that we we're there I was able to reunite with a long time friend that I haven't seen in about 5 years! We really didn't leave off on the best of terms and it's just really great to find that people are able to get past all the stupid things that were your hang ups in your youth and just be friends. Back in the day this guy was one of my best friends, but then it ended badly, so needless to say it was a little surreal to be sitting accross from him a a cafe on commerical drive, just talkin and joking like no time had passed at all. This is where time amazes me, I don't know if I agree that 'time heals all wounds', but it healed this one and for that I am greatful.

The other significant event that I am still Geekin out about happened on Granville island yesterday morning. We had decided to go to the island for breakfast, after getting food we ad settled down in a little square to watch a street performer sing some songs. My attention was on the performer when suddenly I got the urge to look around the place we were sitting. I immediatly saw a man walking that I thought I recognized, but immediatly brushed it off as a coincidence. But the resembalance was to strong, so I performed the tried and true, double-take, and called out his name. It was indeed my friend Chad, now the weird part of this story is not that I saw someone that I know in vancouver, it's the fact that Chad is a teacher in Fort Ware BC, which is a fly-in, fly-out communit, and he just happened to be in vancouver that weekend for a conference. The reason I'm still freakin out about his encounter is that I saw him again later that day at Metrotown! This is the the part that still has me in awe, Fate is amazing, if I hadn't suggested that we go to Graville island that morning, and if we had gone to that exact bakery, and decided to sit down, instead of walking around, not to mention the fact that I had to turn around at that exact point in time and perform a double take, I never would have seen him, and we would never have met up. Sometimes Fate just decides to send you for a loop and give you a good mind fucking. I am a total beliver in fate and it's powers, you rock on Fate, keep doin your thing.

Back to reality

2005-04-21T15:24:00.000-07:00

I have just come from a great Elysium, a Heaven, a wonderous Utopia, if you will. I have just come down from sunpeaks, from spending the most wonderous 4 days with the greatest group of people in existence. The much awaited and anticipated event, the Big Man Anti-social, was a roaring success. This was the first opportunity that any of us had to really de-stress and stop thinking about the little stuff that clouds our days. At Sunpeaks there were no clouds, only happy glorious sunshine, there was no stress, and the only tension that really happened was the store opening at noon and we were there an hour early. Thank you so much to our gracious host, the Big Man himself, and thanks to everyone else in attendance that also helped make this wonderful weekend stand out in my memory forever. I love you all and I hope this isn't the last event that we are able to have, the summer awaits, although anything what we do from now on will probably be compared the best weekend in recent history. Hooray! to the Big Man Anti-social.

Sweet happy drunken sadness

2005-04-09T18:19:00.000-07:00

So sad to say goodbye to Gene, Todd and Portia. So happy to say hello to total drunken rowdy bliss. Good job Chris Mac for your first stage managment gig. Great job to Chris and Brandon on a great show it was absolutly wonderful working with you. Thanks to Stu for directing a great show, it was a pure slice of heaven, and will remain my happy thought for quite some time. Sad to see it go, wish we could tour or something, it really was one of the funnest shows I've had the Privilege to be involved in. Out last show truly kick ass, way to go out with a bang : )

Also a fond fairwell to the cast of Lovers and Other Strangers, it was great working with you, you were a wonderful cast and joy to stagemanage. Thanks Randi for such a positive first time stagemanagement experience.

So good bye Author's voice and Lovers and Other Strangers, Hello Rowdy Drunken Debauchery.

Late night literary defecations

2005-04-04T14:06:00.000-07:00

Cuz I sure pulled that essay out of my ass. I swear that they should dissect college ( I guess University now) students brains to see what keeps them going. I mean college students run on pure adrenaline during finals and term paper time. Theatre students in my opinion work extra hard, cuz not only do we have the same work load as everyone else, but either we're teching, acting, stage managing, or directing plays at the same time. So anyone who says that theatre is easy, can take that sentence and shove it. We have it twice as hard and have no life except that which is theatre. I spit in the general direction of anyone who wrongly states that theatre is easy, it's tough and exhausting, but more rewarding than anything else on this green earth. So I say those who want to grow up, really don't know what their talking about, they must be crazy people and you should approach them only with caution, no sudden movements and backaway slowly, cuz THEATRE ROCKS

What holiday?

2005-03-30T14:55:00.000-08:00

You remember those times when a holiday meant sleeping in and watching really bad daytime TV, then maybe goin shopping or going and playing with friends. Sometimes you wish for the simpler days when you didn't even have to get out of your jammies on holidays. Most holidays revolve around candy and presents. Even if a particular holiday is supposed to remind us of a horrific crucifiction, and a miracle of faith, you still get loaded down with chocolate and little bean shaped jellies. But now a days instead of being able to take time out and enjoy a leisurly dinner with family, your lucky if you can grab a to-go bag of your favorite hoiday treat as you rush out the door to other obligations. Some one asked me the other day if I'm going to be looking forward to a little down time, to which I replied the next time I forsee 'downtime', I'll be decomposing with happy little worms in my head!!! Looking back at the conversation I assume they meant the summer months that are fast approaching, but whatever, the summer will be just as hectic as the regular school year. But life is what you make of it, I'm doin what I love, what I have a passion for, I have a job that I don't hate, I get to spend time with great friends and someday I might get paid for it. Give any of this craziness up? ARE YOU INSANE!!!!!!!!!!! Even though there are wishes of simpler times, there is an 'adequate' appreciation of life right now, and a hopeful persepective on what this life will bring about.

I JUST CAN'T STOP!!!!!

2005-03-23T12:17:00.000-08:00

Seriously I need aversion shock therapy or something! I'm already overloaded and busy as hell( but then again who isn't) then I go and volunteer to be run crew for night B! What the hell is my problem, I think I'm a freakin Masocist or something, glutton for punsihment, that's me. If Cheryl only fails the people she loves to keep them around, then I'd better get an F- and a freakin slap in the face! Now I'm not saying I'm doin any more work than anyone else, I know there are some pretty dedicated people in this crew that all have other things goin on, Work, other classes, Work, family time, Work and trying to keep up on homework.

Then you get those little moments that slow everything down and make things better, even though they are as far from 'better' as they can be. I got to talk to a friend last night, you know, one of those friends that you've know for almost as long as you can remember. You know one of those ones who actually knew what you looked like in Elementary school, and still talks to you anyway :) Well I got to talk to him lastnight and it made me feel better, I think it took a whole 5 min for me to start to think about my hectic life again after I talked to him. And 5 min is worth a life time in these Frenzied days, thanks man ; )

50 lbs. over four blocks wreaks havoc on your shoulders

2005-03-22T11:24:00.000-08:00

Ok, now don't get me wrong I'm entirely happy to have transportation, but it's almost as finiky as I am. The car's a total bitch in cold weather, and although I knew this the weather seems to like being a bitch also. I looked out the window this morning and it was bright and sunny and the birds seemed happy, so of course I'm thinkin to myself 'I got a lot of stuff to bring to school today so I'll take my car'. Nope apparently it decided differently, the weather although it looks nice today it's FUCKING FREEZING!!!!!!!!!!! So because I thought I was taking the car, I calculated my time differently, so i was about 1 min late for the bus, and all that stuff that I had to bring to school, weighed no less than 50-fuckin-lbs., so there's me, fuckin waddlin down Seymour st. after a bus, and I miss not one, not two, but three busses in a row. Winter should be over already, the weather should cut it out with all this foreplay and just get on with the season. That's just what I think

Does anyone know where the weekends went? If someone finds mine could you please send it home, it's dinnertime

2005-03-20T14:57:00.000-08:00

There used to be weekends, wow, even the word sounds weird now, We-eek-and, huh, I just don't get it. I seem to remember happy rowdy up-til-dawn fun and hungover mornings, but those days are replaced with mid-life worthy early nights and earlier mornings. Although sometimes you can cheat the weekend and slip in a little R&R on the sly. Take the movie night for example, IT ROCKED. Thanks to all that showed up, and to those who didn't maybe will catch it the next time. But that just proves in this time of busy rushed papers and assignments that you can covertly slip in a little fun. Now it wasn't complete drunken moral depravity(not that it couldn't be as a rule) but it was good fun, just maxin and relaxin, time spend in great company. Definitly hope to do more of these in the future, maybe with better turn out, maybe not, either way its happy good times for all and glad to do it :)

Little people can be cool too

2005-03-19T23:23:00.000-08:00

So sometimes you can have good experiences with kids. NO, it's true. Now I'm not talkin about a room full of screaming snot nosed ADHD kindergardeners that run around and put chocolate sticky hands on your favorite pants. I'm not talkin about those kids that go through the house running and screaming and trying to tie you to a chair while playing cops and robbers, then proceed to rollerblade over the brand new hardwood floors. I'm talking about the cool ones who are excited to have you over to watch them that they don't get sad when their parents go out. The one's that are funny and cool, like telling stories about the embarassing times they made juice come out of thier friends noses and trying to do gymnastics on the living room floor. Then sit with you through and awsome movie (The Incredibles) and make jokes about their favorite parts. Then when you tell them it's time for bed, do they go screaming and lock themselves in the bathroom? NO!!!!! They go to their room and ask you to read them a story and when you say goodnight they ask if they can read one more story to themselves before they go to sleep. Then when you check on them, they have fallen asleep reading. Know I know I keep saying them, but I mean her, my cousin Elisa-lynn, is awsome, she is one of the best kids I've ever watched. Now I would say the same about River ( her brother) but he was asleep before I got here. So all in all, kinda makes you less scared about one day procreating, if there are cool kids out there :)

So much at once

2005-03-14T20:22:00.000-08:00

You know when you start to feel that your life isn't really yours, that the majority of your day is spent doing those things you have promised others, responsibilities and obligations that your happy to fulfill, but for the most part you go through your day doing alot of the stuff you 'have to' and not alot of the stuff you really 'want to'. Then you get to that point where you do have a rare stolen moment for youself and your not quite sure what to do with it, you remember fun and relaxation, but your not quite sure anymore how to instigate it. That's the time that you really begin to appreciate that few moments you have to grab a nap and the couple of minutes of that nap where the blankets are just the right tempurature and your all snuggled in and comfy and you never want to get up or do anything else, cuz your content right where you are, that's the moment when you realize you have a mid-term the next day, and you forgot your homework in the car, in the cold, cold, car and you have to mustle the modivation to get up and return to your day as you know it. I think everyone should have a pre-paid trip to Maui included in their student fees. That's just what I think